"one last breath, this voice is drowning in eternity."

When You
Love Me ,
I'll Love You Back

When You
Hate Me ,
I'll Still Love You Back

When You
Cherish Me ,
I'll Cherish You
Like No One Else Does

But When
You Betrayed / Hurt
Me Deep Within ,
I'm Sorry To Say
Just Get Outta My Life
Its Over Between Us...

❥AHYAN Writes:

Sunday, June 29, 2008

Blog is OFFICIALLY DEAD on 290608

who cares if its dead...no1 patronise here too :)

0ngoing fever at 42.8 ;D

存在是种悲哀。。
在这川流不息的世界，又有谁会发觉我幼小的存在？
渐渐的，我模糊的影子融入了人海茫茫中。。而跟着消失。。

时间是个改造者。。
人随着时间而改变，不关是好是坏。。
身边最亲的人，也可能会笑里藏刀。。
有句成语，防不胜防。。
是如此的正确。。

在时间的考验之下，
亲情，感情，爱情，有哪一些会真的留下。。
如果这些是真的，
那么应该可以从挫折中吸取宝贵的经验，
并且让彼此更坚强，
更信任，并肩作战。。。
但若是虚伪的，
一次失败就会证明一切。。

时间啊，时间。。。
你真是的。。。
让人快乐，又让人悲哀。。
让人喜爱，又让人憎恨。。

i hope that....what i still have now is not virtual...cause i really treasure it....

(SilentStar) ♥ 8:59 PM

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Ongoing Fever At 43.2 degress.....

Just so sick and tired.....

Sick:

Body Reacting Abnormally?

Rawr!!! When can i ever be healthy?

Realised that someone had misplaced my homework pad...but i wont blame her...She is just muddlehead....so dont blame urself le 0kays?

Tired:

Sick
Insufficent sleep [Ton For Dont Know How Long Le x.x]
Homework [x.x]
Breath Taking Events

Nebermind about that...hate this june "holidays" loads!! its not even a holiday =.= Went to see the doctor by the order of her majesty...seeing doctor = wasting time..... medicines = candies? x.x finally had my last paper today...woohoos...week closure.....

So happy today......got a free meal.... however sad that im sick..jie also....dg also..

y is everyone sick? [sick season?] so tired now.....chionging those homework...guess im half dead already....

To Shirley [Jie]:

Jie must get well soon! Must have discipline....dont anyhow take food/drinks le..Be a sleeping beauty for the time being.... if it worsens or persists, go and consult a doctor okays?Take cares ♥♥♥ Jie ^^v

To DG:

Get well soon too....Maybe u can try rubbing salt? O.O i know its painful, but it helps... Must have discpline too...dont anyhow take food/drinks..Week finally end le....u can sleep more now.... Holiday homework finsih le ma? Po cannot sleep with Oh for the past few days......Kinda sad..... Oh must cheer up.... Take cares YYYY you...

To Darling:

Dont mia hor ! da ren you da liang.... got people love you de okays? dont say i neber love you hors.... you are a nice, warm, cuddly person....if you go le, no one will be happy de lor....ask me take care..u take cares too ok? Anything can tell me de..... dont have to keep it with urself okays? Smile ♥♥♥♥ you..

To TooT:

Dont skip ur meals le okays? its unhealthy de.... u have been feeling dizzy...try to eat some okays? kinda worried for you de.... dont think so much le....just follow ur heart...love this kind of thing is guided my ur feelings not brain cells.... so yea...dont be so pessimistic le 0kays? Negative thought shortens ur life.... ♥♥♥♥ you....

To Laopos:

Reply ur tags here.... im ok la....no worry okays? I will get well de.... Date a? need to put it here meh? You all must take cares too okays? wo mei shi le.... thanks for all your "ai xin", i will be spoilt by u all soon lor.... Laogong ♥♥♥ you[s]....

To Ah Gong:

Correct what......If dont have ah ma, whr gt papa? if dont have papa, whr gt me?

I want ah ma la...... what great grand child? deng jiu jiu a.... get me an ah ma 1st zai shuo! used to it....=.= like i always cry to u like that.... sun nu ♥♥♥ you!

To Carrot:

Si luo po! hai shuo..... all ur fault, make me addicted to mocha... rawr!! but neberminds...its nice ;D thx for ur free meal....hehex...

Lastly to myself...... Kuai dian zuo wan gong ke !! x.x

SLEEP & TIME, i love you T-T

(SilentStar) ♥ 10:54 PM

Back In Action By The Request Of Some People =D

Now have a mixture of feelings...Initially, thought of leaving..but now i see how much im lovedd...well ty for all ur love :)I dont know le la....i really dont want to care about anything le....fan fan FAN!

Now running high fever of 43 degrees ^^v Lets see can break my old record ma xDD Still got lots of homework piled up x.x School re-opening liaos & im dead....

Sian , Sian still SIAN..... Initially can g0 watch free movie & have free sakae sushi meal de...but i got exams & overslpt after that...rawr!!! now stuck at home , be guai kia & do my homework ;x

Fever still ongoing as usual..... Who can pei me? Rawr!!!

To Shirley [Jie]:

Hahah.....Back From My Vacation Le... Although initially

dont want come back de, but cannot leave jie behind

ma... :)You must take care wo...You are sick :( if it

persists, must see doctor 0kays? Cannot dont

care....cause i care xDD Sorry

Cannot pei you audi yesterday....

^^v Later go out be careful wo...dont be sian.... ♥♥ Jie

To Ling [Nuer]:

U say dont post about you...But i still post le xDD Had a

great time chatting with you...Now you know mama's

little secrets xDD Cannot tell wo...Shhhhh ;x Mama not

pretty, just normal.... Next time we can demand them for

$$ le...hahah....Mama neber emo le...So dont cry le kays?

*Say Cheese* ;x ♥♥ Nuer

To Darling :

Hohoho....dont say i neber write about you hor....I dont know

if you still angry ma.... but im sorry....will u even read this ?

.________. neberminds.... enjoy ur stay at the

chalet... Sorry for being indifferent to you for days x.x Dont jealous le la..

maybe... i really think too much le ba ;x take cares... ♥♥♥♥ Darling

To Dong Gua :

You are not forgotten too ;x Jiayous for your long stays at

school this week :) Sorry for venting frustrations on you

the whole of this week x.x must take care okays? Jys for

Os... ♥♥♥ Dong Gua

To Kor[s] :

I cannot mia la.....you all keep fan me.... give me no peace , no

rest.... how to go mia..... But im realli tired of life.... idw to

care anymore liaos...xDD Instead of asking me for a mei fu, you all find me sao zi[s] 1st la....Zzzz

To Carrot: Stupid Luo Po.... Make me addicted to coffee...rawr.... but still thanks.... for helping me do homework ;x U r a very nice guy lor.... *good catch*and hor dont be so childish le la....dou ji sui liaos....Jys in your work =D

♥♥ you all... rock on ^^

To My Lovely Marmie :

I will take care de.... dont go jian fei le la

Daddie is a faithful guy...so dont worry okays?

If he turn unfaithful , i will be the 1st to deal with

him...so dont sad le hao ma? Daddie & Marmie will last long =D

nu er ♥♥ marmie

To Ah Gong:

I still dont like bball... so difficult to play.... and hor... u so

tall....of course can shoot better la... *FYI im NOT a AI DONG GUA

Although you always show that qian zou lian, but i know u care alot de...

Thank you Ah Gong!!! For being there for me... sowie i wetted ur shirt that day ;x Next time treat u to coffee not kopi ! xDD kuai dian zhao yi ge ah ma ;x

♥♥ Ah Gong

To Tigger:

Sorry for crying over the phone that day....make u cannot sleep ;x now i think i can adapt to life le ba....let nature take its course...Jys for ur As... idk y, whenever im sad i will look for u O.O maybe u r a confidate? O.O

To My 20 Lovely Laopo[s]:

Wo yong yuan ai ni mei ^^ Thank for bein there for me.... when is our next outing gonna be? Laogong ai ni men ^^v ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ If those chou nan ren make you all upset , just show them "Laopo Power" ;x

Still got many more.... but too sian to post ;x tell you all personally ba :)

(SilentStar) ♥ 12:56 PM

Sunday, June 15, 2008

I guess.....this is gonna be the last footprint that i leave behind le.....
Im not going on9 anymore...Well some people may celebrating about it, while some may be disappointed....

I lost almost everything le..... Family , friends ,

health , maybe even myself..... I shall not elaborate on it le....

Life just though seems to give way to me, but neberminds....im gonna make sure i led a fulfilling life.....

To the people who hated me so much: Good news for y0u.....yay!!! *Lets celebrate* Wanyan is finally gone !! One pollution gone!!! Save the earth!!

To the people who loved me so much: I dont know if its good or bad news.. but...yea.... i am leaving..... i am sorry that i disappointed you... i know....i have hurt y0u all once again...but yeap...this is g0nna be the last time.... or maybe its a blessing for you all?

without me = no pollution = no hurt = no pain = peace

= happiness = world without me will rejoice

To Shirley Jie:

Thank you for all the memories that

you give me..... whenever i am down

you will try to make me smile...

though i only hurt you time and time again...

you still love me so.... im really glad to have

you as my jie.... no matter what, i wont forget you...

Dont emo le.... emo not good wo... must rem (^^v)

Stay happy always... u r not a hongster and take more care of your health... you will find ur mr right de... remember what i said?

'Those people who mind dont matter, those people who matter dont mind.....' Dont dwell in people's opinion.change their opinion of you.. jie dont cry le....SSSS x33

woaini shirley jie^^

For Jie

Sisters are a thing to share

They take the time to show they really care

Sisters fill a life with love

Sent to us from God above

Sisters hug when times are bad

They wipe away tears off each other faces

Sisters cry when another is hurt

That is how we show that we care

Sisters are there in times of need

To mend the wound from whence we bleed

Sisters have unending faith

No one else could take your

Sisters share everything

Even our deepest secrets

We laugh, we cry, we even joke

Sisters are a special friend

From cradle to grave it will never end

Sisters love no questions asked

They also see right through the mask

Sisters see within your soul

They also see what makes you whole

Sisters are always within your heart

Because of your life they are a part

Sisters live from day to day

But within us all they will forever stay.

To U Should Know Who You Are:

Thank you for all the times you gave me.... You really gave me a shock at that time.... When you asked me that question...I dont know if you want to be named here ma... But yea.... You helped me through my time of need.... u even went zi bei at times... but remember....

"No matter how life is, you cannot decide what would happen,

but u can decide on how are you gonna face it, zi bei = hopeless, believe = hopeful","dont be too sensitive... sometimes it may be a bad thing..."

I apologise for not being able to be a good ****friend to you....yea...I cannot give you the care & concern that you need.....

dont blame urself for what has happened le.... yea.... and dont take in people's comments that easily...cause sometimes they arent true....its best to ask the victim instead of outsiders' comments.

I love you...and i dont regret that....and forever will..what is yours would still be yours , no matter how u runaway from it, what isnt yours still wouldnt be yours, no matter how u chase after it.... You have really changed my life...

I am glad that i knew you.... and im sorry i let you down...

Take good care of yourself...dont be emo le....life may be hard but i know you can pull through it de.... Try to think positively okays?

Aishiteru ***** San....

When I think of my love for you

the wonder of its beauty takes my breath away.

I cannot recall the moment in time it began,

but only the overwhelming feeling of ecstasy it brought to me.

For at that moment I knew happiness.

A happiness I had never known before.

For just the thought of you gave me joy beyond belief.

The thought of being with you and being held by you was my one desire

I knew once we first met none other would ever do

,for I knew love.

I knew love as I had never thought possible in this life time.

It is a love of passion and desire.

It is a never-ending need to you,for you, only you.

When I think of my love for you

I realize I now know the true meaning of love

.I will love you as long as this life endures and beyond,

for you are my dreams,

my realities.You are my heart

You are my meaning of true love.

Can we return to the past....? Reality or virtual....

To Dong Gua :

Thank you for being there for me 24/7..... yea.... i know...we always got conflict with each other.... but yea.... quarrels had made the gap between me and you nearer le...even after that major incident, although we went different ways le...but u still cared for me...

Remember : You live for yourself not anyone.... When u give your best, the satisfaction u get... no one can ever comprehend.... Dont always blame urself for being useless...it really aint ur fault....life is like that....

Like what i said, i dont regret loving anyone..Dont say people throw u le hor....u r a human, cannot be thrown away de.... Must take care okays? i know ur results is kinda...but.....dont give up..... Os is the final stop..... Dont cry hor..... i hate dong gua soup or juice.....

Sarang Heyo Nimo San

To Tigger

I dont know would you be reading.... but yea.... you really brought lights into my life.... I know u r worried for me.... but yea... everything is over le... Btw jys for ur As.... Continue with ur song writing...future composer maybes? And thanks for all the memories u left me with.... at least its humorous.... yea...everything is over for me le.... idk everytime sad, u will suddenly appear O.O take cares....

To whoever loved or hate me

well, no matter u like it anot, life still got to go on..... A brand new day is a brand new starting.... Lead a meaningful life.... Dont cry over the things u lost but cherish those that u still have...

Life Is A Vacation

At birth we started a long vacation

Some vacation becomes too long

Some their duration very brief

Whether long or brief we still vacate

The schedule starts at infancy

Some schedule are tight and others very loose

However we accomplish only what's destined

On this vacation we climb mountains

And make a descent of valleys

These are the contours of life

For it is filled with ups and downs

Life is a serious vacation

Where success and failures combines

Where some turns out wise

And others remain perpetually foolish

And another category remains on the fence

This is the vacation of life

Life Is Full 0f Ups & Downs

Just Like A Roller Coaster Ride

Those Who Enjoy Benefit From It

Those Who Don't Will Suffer

Life Is Like A Dream Sometimes Sweet Yet Scary

Like Miracles & Tragedies

In Fairy Tales & Horror Stories

However This Ride & Dream Will Come To An End,

Whether U Like It Anot.....

So Cherish It When U Still Can

Make It The Best Of All...

(SilentStar) ♥ 9:14 PM

This feeling is real

Every single night,
When i look to the sky,
I start thinking of you,
And then ask myself "why?"

"Why do i love you?"
I thought and smile,
Because i know,
The list could run on for miles.

The whisper of your voice,
The warmth of your heart
,So many little things,
Make me love you so much.

The way you support me,
Even my silly notions,
The way that you care,
And show such devotion.

Lost with you forever,
Is where i want to be.
The way that i feel,
When you were by my side,
A sense of completion,
And overflowing pride.

The dreams that i dream,
That all involve you,
The possibilities that i see,
The things that we can do.

How you finish the puzzle,
That lies within my heart,
How deep in my soul,
You are a very important part.

I could go on for days,
Telling you what I feel,
But all you really must know is...
My love for you is real.

(SilentStar) ♥ 5:04 PM

I really l0ve y0u...i really do..... i really dont know what is going through in ur mind..... u said u l0vedd me, but..... is it real l0ve or just illusion? u come and go like how shadows do..... i really need you, but where are y0u?

(SilentStar) ♥ 4:18 PM

Friday, June 13, 2008

Friend Is A Mystery Indeed

Human need human
And friends need friends
And we all need love
For a full life depends

Not on vast riches or great acclaim,
Not on success or on worldly fame,
But just in knowing that someone cares
And holds us close in their thoughts

For only the knowledge that we understood
Makes everyday living feel wonderfully good,
And we rob ourselves of life's greatest need
When we "lock up our hearts"
And fail to heed

The outstretched hand reaching to find
A kindred spirit whose heart and mind
Are lonely and longing to somehow share
Our joys and sorrows
And to make us aware

That life's completeness and richness depends
On the things we share with our loved ones and friends.

Starry Yan Y

(SilentStar) ♥ 3:31 PM

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

wo zou ba...... ji ran wo shi na me mei yong de..... haix..... quan bu dou shi huang yan..... the truth is the truth.....you cannot change it no matter how hard you try.... all along i am just deceiving myself....thinking i could really change....

Its time to wake up from this beautiful dream le........ And face the reality.... the harsh, cold, lonely path that i embark on once again.... is there an end?? or maybe im just suitable for that kind of life..... a loner is always a loner... ;D;D;D;D;D

Wo dui bu qi ni men..... sheng sheng de shang hai le ni men..... wo zhi dao zai duo de dui bu qi ye wu fa mi pu.....dan shi wo zhi neng shuo I AM SORRY.... yao hao hao zhao gu zi ji o.... yao hao hao zhen xi sheng bian de yi qie... bu yao deng dao shi qu le zai cai hou hui mo ji..... yong yuan ai ni men YYYYYYYY

(SilentStar) ♥ 11:52 AM

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Jie this is dedicated to y0u YYYYY

You have been through all with me ,

And our sister-ship is more than reality.

We are two, but we stand as one,

And I don't know what I would do without you.

You're always there when I need you,

And I can't believe all the things that we have been through.

No one ever gets me the way you do,

And it's all because you are just you.

You are my best sista, and I want to thank you,

Because you have always brought out the best in me.

You always find a way to make me smile

when i am feeling blue.

And whenever i am sad

You never fail to cheer me up and lift me high.

I don't think you will ever really understand

How you have touched my heart,

and made me who I am now.

I don't think you could ever know just how special you are to me,

Because you are a better sister than anyone could ever be.

I hope you will forever be my best sister and sista,

Because I know we will be best sisters till the end.

I will never forget you even if we are in the biggest fight,

I know we will get through it,

because we are too tight,

and it just wouldn't feel right.

You will always be in my heart,

No matter how bad things get.

And we will never have to grow apart,

Because we will look back at those times and hope to never forget.

So this one is for me and you

To always help us remember,

That miracles do come true,

Because you're my best sister forever.

Starry Yan Y

(SilentStar) ♥ 10:50 PM

Thank you for all your support....so touched T_______T

从今天起,徐婉艳 will be re-borned (: jie i will keep my promise de =D

Random

An old girl leading a new life xDD

Let all bygones be bygones....

Let those history be my memories, no matter good or bad.....

Treat it as "yummy" experiences and move on with them.....

But i am glad, there are people moving on with me (:

I will try my best not to let you

all down again (:

Reborn

Rotting this life for some time,

Insufficient laughters and too many cries.

Trying to figure out where did i go wrong,

Precious time are all gone

Striving to achieve higher heights,

life's a stone skipping across a pond.

At the last skip,

it hits with a splash,

Down the stone sinks,

gone in a flash.

Pushing and pulling,

it's tearing apart,

Poking and prodding an underused heart.

This dark velvet curtain that hides my soul,

Living this life has taken it's toll.

In a flash of bright light,

the curtain is torn,

Tumbling down all tattered and worn.

Revealing new life,

a child within,

Born free of hatred & sufferings.

Now my eyes see the unknown,

Striving forth happy, confident and bold.

Into a world that's unfamiliar but friendly,

Into this new life my spirit will send me.

Living and laughing,

loving it all,

I stood myself up,

with my lovedd ones beside.

The darkness has gone,

replaced by the light,

I gave up the darkness

with all ur help

and my might.

Enjoying life from now on,

With laughter aplenty and hardly a tear.

Now I can see just where i gone wrong,

Cherish every moment of this new life that im holding on.

Starry Yan Y

(SilentStar) ♥ 9:13 PM

Since i am so hated by the world, i might as well disappear from this face of this world...... does my presence even matter now? i am not wanted here anyways...... maybe i just leave..... the world would be better...

To shirley jie: I know how u feel...im sorry.... idk if i still can be ur mei ma... decision is urs...... maybe i dont even deserve it.... all i can say is sorry and goodbye....i neber regretted having u as my jie...im sorry i let u down...

To all those who care: Well, thank you for all the love and care you all have showered me now.... From today on, i will not be me le.....Yea.... so take cares... Sayonara~

I was n0t and never wanted here....... Just didnt expect the time to be so soon....well its time for me to wake up, i guess? Memories are beautiful, yet they are temporal.....

*BLOG OFFICIALLY CLOSED ON 100608, 1135*

(SilentStar) ♥ 11:27 AM

Monday, June 9, 2008

Just cant stop loving her YYYYYYYYY

(SilentStar) ♥ 11:25 PM

Mr carrot is back in action =D

He looked so different lor O.O

But neberminds (: He brought back prezzies....wohoos!!!!

3mo family! x.x bears Y xDD too bad its not pooh...but neberminds (:

Da Kor [Durian]

Er Kor [Carrot]

Xiao Mei [Wintermelon/Me!]

He bought me a doraemon too O.O that time i made a passing comment only O.O

He even bought one for my brother...so nice of him =D

You must wondering who he is right? Too bad he is my er kor only ^.^v He is a MEGA nice catch okays?
* Ahems* dont jealous wo =x

Since his birthday is over, we held a belated birthday for him....or rather me.... Mr durian is not around T.T he is a pang sah kia!!! hmph... he broke the promises we 3 had made.....must be too engrossed being with my beautiful cousin ba =x neberminds....made him a mango moose as present.....cause dont know what he really liked x.x

Though it is supposed to be his birthday celebration, he gave me a present too O.O

He still says he got more surprises...O.O wonder what he has installed...kekex...

(SilentStar) ♥ 10:08 PM

Living In Disguise

Cowardly We Hide.

Afraid To Be Hurt By Lies,

We Are Imprisoned Inside.

(SilentStar) ♥ 9:27 PM

Today went back to see the principal..... and he told me this sentence....

Initially i dont really understand,

However this time round,

when he told me,

i finally understood.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light,

not our darkness that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves,

Who am I to be brilliant,

gorgeous, talented, fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.

There is nothing enlightened about shrinking

so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We are all meant to shine, as children do.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.

It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine,

we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fear,

our presence automatically liberates others.

(SilentStar) ♥ 8:59 PM

I have sprained my ankle today.... very fragile right?

I dont know why..... but i feel very empty from within.....

You

Y0u come, you go

Just like a shadow

You stay, you leave

Whenever y0u like

You appear, you vanish

In a split second

You seem so magical

And faraway

In my eyes

U made me happy, u made me sad

All my emotions are laid down in your hands

U make me secured, u make me scared

My life is revolving around y0u alone

As time goes by

All things have changed

But my feelings for y0u still remains...

With each passing day in my life,

You have never left my mind.

Becoming over-dependent on y0u,

Couldnt walk out of y0ur sight.

Why did y0u walked so deeply into me

Only to tell me

How pathetic i am indeed...

I dont know what to do le..... i really dont know..... am i so useless? i say i would be there for y0u...but all u say is nothing.... n0w i sprained my ankle and feel very depressed..... shall i say nothing to y0u too? 0kays...

Promises

Promises can be made

Promises can be broken

How many promises are really here to stay?

Promises are real

Promises are vague

How do we even differentiate?

Promises heal

Promises hurt

How many a time are they fulfilled?

Cheewy★

(SilentStar) ♥ 8:05 PM

Sunday, June 8, 2008

Girls get heartbroken easily...All because guys dont cherish them well... During a breakup, if a girl should tell you she is alright, please dont believe.For she is just pretending.In actual fact, she is hurting and tearing apart deep within...

The Heartbroken Girls' Feelings

When i said i got over you,

I lied.

The love i felt for you

I denied.

When you broke up with me,

I cried.

When you said you didn't love me,

I died.

When ever i think of you,

I ached.

When you left my life,

I numbed.

I felt like a stupid fool,

Thinking you would always be by my side.

When we are together,

I remembered the knot we tied.

But when we broke up,

I tried to forget i tried.

But my mind contradicts my body,

My love for you still grows,

Deep inside me.

Cheewy ★

(SilentStar) ♥ 4:46 PM

Dearest One

So sweet a soul are you my dear,
The sweetest loving soul i have ever met.

Like the sweet fragrance of lavenders,
Carrying such freshness and charm
You radiate such a lustrous warmth
Of an incomparable love and peace.

Such love my soul has dearly sought
Such peace my soul has found in you.

In sweetness of such soulful love
My heart now welcomes you to it,
As if two hearts can be destined as one
We find ourselves now to us in love.

Now my dearest angel soul,
Lets sip this love that comes from soul,
To cherish and to partake of one
With love, in love from all our being
Deep from our hearts recesses pot.

I cherish you my sweetest soul.

Cheewy ★

(SilentStar) ♥ 4:35 PM

So sick & tired n0w....im really lost in what im doing.... can anyone show me the direction or way?

Speechless

What should i do now,
i have no idea.

When is that irritating foe,
going to leave me alone?

I am so tired of resisting it,
can i just give in,
and be a sleeping beauty?

No matter how hard i try to make it leave,
it would just return stronger each time..
Now i am really weakened by it,
why wont it just set me free?

Fever , fever , oh my dear fever.....
Are you my friend or my foe?...

Cheewy★

(SilentStar) ♥ 4:15 PM

I Need You

Boy, I really need you now and forever,
Please take me by the hand.
Stand by me in my hour of need,
Take time to understand.

Take my hand, oh boy,
And lead me out of this place.
Chase away my doubts and fears,
Wipe the tears off my face.

Boy, I cannot stand alone.
I need your hand to hold,
The warmth of your gentle touch
In my world that has grown so cold.

Please be with me
And hold me day by day.
Because with your loving hand in mine,
I know we will find the way.

Cheewy★

(SilentStar) ♥ 4:07 PM

Questionare [Requested By Mochi x.x]

Because you are loved by me, so you have to do it.
If you dont, your love will disappear tonight. [x.x]

Love Survey:

You must answer
every question TRUTHFULLY!!

[01] Are you currently in a relationship?

- Yes. ♥♥♥♥ him

[02] Have you ever been given a rose..

- Yeap.more than one. x.x

[03] What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
- idk O.O

[04 ] There's no number 4 question..
- cool? O.O

[05] Do you believe that everyone has a soul mate ?
- Absolutely.♥♥

[06] What's your current problem?
- i miss someone badly D;!

[07] Have you ever had your heart broken?

- Yesh T.T

[08] Your thoughts of online or long distance relationships?
- depends.....

[09] Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend

- Its already history.

[10] The person your with right now, do you want to spend your life with?
- Till my last breath!♥♥

[11] How many kids do you want to have?
- Never thought of it....

[12] What is/are your favorite colors?

- blue ♥♥!

[13] Who are your celebrity crush ?
- I dont crush...Besides i have my ♥♥ le :D

[14] Do you believe you truly only love once??

- Maybes?

[15] Imagine you're 79 your husband just died, would you get re-married?
- NO WAY! i rather be a widow...

[16] At what age did you start noticing the opposite sex?
- Since primary 1, hated them to core...but in recent yrs...i started to changed my views on them...O.O

[17] What song do u want to be played at your wedding?

- I Wanna Be With You ♥♥

[18 ] Do you like anyone?

- I dont like..... i love him ♥♥♥♥♥

(SilentStar) ♥ 2:08 AM

Saturday, June 7, 2008

My Furry Friend

Each night I lay down to sleep

On bed a friend I keep.

He has lots of fluffy fur and

Give a spongy feeling.

This friend I know

Won't ever tell lies

Like how some people do.

Each morning when I am awake

This friend's nice cuddle I always take.

I kiss him goodbye and give him a squeeze

And tuck him in so he can sleep.

I tell him I will be home quite soon

Then we will cuddle again under the moon.

I walk out of the room and wave goodbye

I know he understands

I know he will not cry.

Cheewy★

(SilentStar) ♥ 1:08 PM

Teddy Bear

If I told you, "I think you're the one"

Would you love me and never let go

Would you sew my button back on

Please sit down and tell me so

If I told you that I love you

Would you hold me so tight

That stuffing would come out of me

And fluff me up at night

If I told you nothing at all

Would you still gaze upon my face

Throughout darkness and over time

In a lover's warm embrace

If I told you, "I will go a great distance"

Would you follow me without a care

Or, should I just stay right beside you

And be your great big teddy bear

Cheewy★

(SilentStar) ♥ 12:47 PM

Teddy bears, i am really sorry

I left y0uu alone
I let y0uu fall when i am angry
I didnt care when y0uu were afraid of the dark

But still y0uu never left me....y0uu always stay by my side.....

Thats why y0uu are important to me & il0vey0u teddy bears

(SilentStar) ♥ 11:06 AM

Friday, June 6, 2008

Every stream has its hazards and also its aides,
Be they mosses, a rapid, or fall,
So does life have a rough and unsteady course
With its sadness and joy for us all.

Then if life is so easily termed as a stream
That winds down the valley of time,
Let us put the emotions in simile form
And coin them all into rhyme.

Lakes of love are formed here and there
As the stream trickles down through the dell,
Falls of fun with a splash and a spray
Serve to make our heart joyously swell.

Swamps of sorrow loom up into view
Accompanied by puddles of pain,
Mud holes of misery and currents of care
May be brought by a shower of rain.

Now a channel of cheer may soothe our sad soul
As we paddle and float in our strife,
But we never can tell what will next be our test,
They're all in the river of life.

Then on to the sea of eternity
We must follow our uncertain route,
To scamper and join with a cloud of content,
Or sink in the deltas of doubt.

Cheewy★

(SilentStar) ♥ 10:24 PM

i am very lost now.....mixed feelings..... one moment u were so close to me, next moment u changed......

neberminds.....my main concern now is how are you.... must take care okays? let time decide my next move.....

(SilentStar) ♥ 6:04 PM

1.Finally study camp is over (: but still i have to return back to school = no holidays D;

2. I still yet to recover form my fever....

3.Watched KUNG FU PANDA x333

It MEGA nice...... Meaningful & funny...... hahah.... i x33 u PO....kekex...

Dont underestimate pandas or muscular size people okies? They are mega good.... ^^ They can even save the world...O.O

Today went back to school as usual..... But my class is special....others are having phototaking session while my class was having maths lesson x.x a class of bananas xDD

After 1 hr of lesson, listen to the speech of our year master....she talk for almost 2 hrs.....wow.....her breath is so long...hahha...no offence =x after which dismissal......

since we are still 4 hrs away from e movie..... i went to ori hse....her mum is so good okays? feel like a somebody for once (: then we talk,talk & talk.....dance & dance.....

And suddenly her elder bro pop out.....xia si ren a x.x hecame to e rm to study while listening to our convo....weird.....O.O =x we were so into ourselves....we were late for the movie =x teacher call us up......

we ran from ori's hse to sun plaza..... O.O 2 mad girls running =x then just nice the movie started...phew....0kies enuff of tis part....

The movie was so nice..... initially its boring.... but still its nice.... panda was a warrioir savin the world [jus only his fantasizing =x] he helps his peacock dad to sell noodles in the village.....

blah blah blah......

Dont tell u e interesting parts....=x go and watch for urselves....

he changed from a panda who was despised by ppl to a panda who saved his village....woootss happy ending (:

somemore i tried almost all flavours of popcorn today @_@

addicted to popcorn n0w =x

(SilentStar) ♥ 5:46 PM

Thursday, June 5, 2008

Quiz...(Requested By DG)

Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all

1) Have you given your first kiss away?

Cherry ♥♥♥

2)Is emo-ing cool?

Childish But Cool At Times

3)Where is the place you want to go the most?

Somewhere Where No1 Suffers

4)If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?

Loving The People Who Lovedd Me

5)Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?

Yeap.... Both real & Virtual

6)Who/What are you afraid to lose the most now?

belovedd ones

7)If you win $1 million, what would you do?

Help The Financially Challenged

8)If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?

Use To Be A Yes....But For now.... idk...

9)List out 3 good points of the person (DG) who tagged you.

Caring, Warm, Close?

10)What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?

To l0ve & be l0vedd by me

11)Which type of person do you hate the most?

Not Repentant

12)What is your ambition?

To l0ve & be l0vedd

13)If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?

Tell me....so that i can further improve...

14)What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

The lives of my lovedd ones

15)Are you a workaholic or not?

No [Individual View]

Yes [Everyone' View]

16)If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?

My Weakness

17)What do you usually do at home?

Chat, Study , Debate xD

18)Any weird habits or quirks?

Indefinite? O.O

19) How do you think the person who tagged you can change to be a better person ? (It's perfectly fine to leave it blank if you think he/she is perfect). Let Nature Take Its Course (:

20)What would you be doing if you were not taking this quiz?

Deep In Thoughts

tag:(In Random Order)

1.Vanez NvEr

2.Gabriel Didi

3.Xinyu Laupo

4.Krystal Mei Mei

5.Cheryl Mei Mei

6.Chunhui Mei Mei

7.Celestine Mei Mei

8.Joan Mei Mei

(SilentStar) ♥ 9:24 PM

Loving

I just want to love

Love of the truest profile

A total conquer of the heart

Without physical inclinations

Deceiving my flimsy senses
I just want to love

Thrust myself into whimsical fantasies

Of bold shining knights

And romantic trysts

Of sugar-coated locks

And sweet dreamy gazes

Filling my spinning mind

With delirious joy
I just want to love

So why won’t you let me

Just love you?

Cheewy★

(SilentStar) ♥ 8:34 PM

In living ,we take part,
Of this unpredictable charade,
We are strangers at heart.

Life is but a masquerade....

No one truly knows us
Only the masks we wear.
We faded away our trust,
No given chance anywhere...

Cheewy ★

(SilentStar) ♥ 8:17 PM

Cry It Out

Pitter Patter, Pitter Patter

The raindrops are falling.

As the tears make their way down

The Puffy Cheeks Of Mine.

Why must it be this way,

For the prince to pick his cinderella.

Only to break her heart once more,

And tear her completely apart.

And now she is grieving;

The whole world is mourning

The prince has left his beloved,

None but she knows the truth.

For when he left,

He say one sentence,

"We were never meant for each other."

And so she is left here all alone,

To cry her heart out,

While no one knows.

Once again,

I walk down the damp, dark path.

However this time,

I am all on my own.....

Cheewy ★

(SilentStar) ♥ 7:37 PM

Who Am I

I'm really a nobody .
Just a little rat named Rattus,

Running the infamous rat race.

I'm the good old rational rat.

Running in my own little lane.

I never do anything out of line,

Never disturb the cat,

Never offend my own race.

Perhaps you're wondering,

Rats were cruel

rats were bad,

Rats chew furniture

and make housewives mad,

How could I be,

a good old rat?

Well my Mama told me,

That I'm called Rattus and

I'm just another Rat.

But if I be a goody goody one,

Run my little race,

Never to step out of my own lane,

Be good and work hard,

I would get to the center of the maze.

Find the cheese,

And become somebody.

Somebody.

Somebody

Someday.

Well it's been years since

I've seen my mama.

But her voice still rings in my head.

Ever since we've been separated,

I've come to this weirdo scientist's lab.

So everyday I just run and run and run.

Couldnt find the cheese,

But never mind, I'll keep running,

Be good and work hard,

I'll get the cheese someday.

Someday.

When I get the cheese

I bet all the other rats will go mad.

Maybe that would be the day

the mad scientist would let me go back!

Go back to you, my mama.

Then I could curl up against you again.

Like we never separated before.

Mama,

Do you know how much your little rat.

Your little Rattus,misses you?
But it's okay it's all right,

I'll run my little race well.

Be good and work hard,

I'll keep to my own lane.

Never step out of line.

And soon enough I'll get to the center of the maze.

Get the big BIG cheese,

I hear it's gigantic, they say!
And then I'll return to you mama.

Back to the fields of the golden daffodils.

Marry a sweet little male rat,

And have lots of little 'uns.

Just like you had me mama.

Just like you had me.
But first I need to keep running.

Run and run and run.

Until I get to the center,

Become the winner,

Become that somebody you wanted me to become,

That somebody, mama.

But well,

Until then, I'm a nobody really.

Just a little rat named Rattus.
Running the rat race...

Cheewy ★

(SilentStar) ♥ 6:50 PM

Lost love

Happiness is the sweetest revenge!

Trying to forget someone you love

is just like trying to

remember someone you never met.

The negative happenings in your life

open up your blind eyes

to the sweet happenings in life which

you weren't paying attention to before.

Don't ever surrender

if you desire a second try

Don't ever wipe your tears

if you still want to cry.

Don't ever settle for an answer

if you still want to know.

Don't ever say you don't love him

if you can't let him go.

You hurt her more than you deserve,

how can you be so cruel?

She loves you more than you deserve,

why is she such a fool?

Cheewy ★

(SilentStar) ♥ 6:26 PM

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Silence, Emptiness, And Confusion

Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl

It feeds on loneliness and creates a void

Grey shadows haunt and torment and torture

A teenager is stricken and destroyed

There is no sound of laughter or happiness here

The little one has thrown in the towel today

Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul

It is futile to hope and dream and pray

Emptiness builds a home in this woman

In this girl, this child where hollows have bred

A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes

And eats away at every connecting thread

Confusion feeds like a savage inside her,

Leaving nothing considered worthy remains

Destined to walk through life less ordinary

Alone, exiled, different and disdained.

Cheewy ★

(SilentStar) ♥ 6:19 PM