"one last breath, this voice is drowning in eternity."

When You
Love Me ,
I'll Love You Back

When You
Hate Me ,
I'll Still Love You Back

When You
Cherish Me ,
I'll Cherish You
Like No One Else Does

But When
You Betrayed / Hurt
Me Deep Within ,
I'm Sorry To Say
Just Get Outta My Life
Its Over Between Us...

❥AHYAN Writes:

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Today's the day for Os..... cannot stand the examiner....keep staring at me...Zzzz...... cannot concentrate...but neberminds...now its over....lets celebrate.....hope can get an A1 like my teachers' estimation....

Hmm not really celebrating......

*Gotta return back to school everyday during the june holidays from 0730 to 1700.....OMG!!!!! my school is a killer man...... deprived us of our freedom.....Zzzz.....time to exercise the tiny cells in that small brain of mine...... *Brain Juice*....

So tired too.....

*Havent really recover from that fever..... so many infections......Ka-

chia!!!! sick sick sick.....tired tired....tired......dont have appetite to eat too.....sianx....... who can help me??!!

(SilentStar) ♥ 12:56 AM

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Nothing to do......so drew these YY..... =DD

(SilentStar) ♥ 12:11 AM

My Creations <33

Thursday, May 22, 2008

So tired.......but managed to make this 2 cakes =D.......dont know if its nice anot O.O

Mango Moose Cake Y

Chocolate Moose Cake Y

(SilentStar) ♥ 5:15 PM

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

LOVE STORY
{True Love}
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Y MAIN CHARACTERS:
1] Boy Butterfly
2] Girl Butterfly

Two butterflies were in love.........
One day, they decided to play Hide n Seek.......
During the play.....

Boy Butterfly : "A small game within us"
Girl Butterfly : "OK"
Boy Buttefly:"The one who sits in this flower tomorrow early in the morning.....that one loves the other one more....."
Girl Butterfly : "OK"
Next morning, the boy butterfly waits for the flower to open so that
he can sit before the girl butterfly does......

Finally, the flower opened.....
What did he see.....?????
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The girl butterfly had died inside the flower..... She stayed there all night......so that early in the morning......as soon as she sees him.......she can fly to him and tell him how much she loved him.......

.This is true LOVE....Life is LOVE....... LIVING MIGHT MEAN TAKING CHANCES, BUT THEY ARE WORTH TAKING......LOVING MIGHT BE A MISTAKE, BUT ITS WORTH MAKING........

(SilentStar) ♥ 5:48 PM

A Lil Story.....

Love Story
{Love Contract}
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Y MAIN CHARACTERS:
1] Lil Gal
2] Lil Boy

Beginning............

This lil boy has always like this lil gal who lives 2 doors away from him.... This lil gal is a very cute, cuddly girl.....

But she is also a slow reactor....

She always cant seems to understand hints.....

She get heart broken easily....

Wondering when can she ever find her prince charming.....

Whereas this lil boy is ever so shy....

He has really strong felings for her....

However he has no courage to confess his love to her......

He dropped her lots of hints but she just couldn't get it......

Thats was why he can only remain as a "very good friend" to her.....

Whenever lil gal is upset or broken hearted......

lil boy would be there to lend her a shoulder and wipe away her tears.....

Whenever lil gal is angry or frustrated....

lil boy would be there to be her punching bag or "venting machine".....

Whenever lil gal is happy or excited.....

lil boy will be there smiling......

As they were talking as usual, they came to this topic......."Arent we pathetic....... Even if the whole world's guys and girls died, no 1 will want us....we are the only ones left behind......"

So they decided to sign a contract....."Love contract"

The contract regulations are:

1] Two of us are to go out on dating as a couple

2] The contracts ends when either party has

found her prince / his princess

There was several times, lil gal suspected something different about him....She asks lil boy if he had any feelings for her...... lil boy would always put on a smile and deny," Silly girl......why would i?You and ur silly thoughts...." but deep inside his heart he has always been yearning to say," Yes! Yes! Silly girl.....i have been loving you all this time.....cant you see?"

To lil boy,nothing matters to him as long as she smiles.....

So years of his secret love for her just went on and on for years.........

The contract ended.....

He went through thick and thin with her.....

Even though she has a new guy.....

Till one day.......

lil gal ran to him and say," i am gonna marry soon...... i have finally found my prince charming.....yipee!!!" A mixture of feelings flow through

lil boy..... He is happy for her yet sad that he is not the one marrying her... He tried to hold back his tears and showed a smile to her....."Grats....see i told you..... you will find ur him 1 day"

After she left, he went to his room and cried his heart out.....

"Why.....?Why cant i just pluck out that lil courage of mine to tell her my feelings? Now she is gonna be gone.....Arent i pathetic? letting her slip out of my hands just like that? why am i even regretting about it now?hah......i am just a pathetic one......"

At that time, lil boy received a letter and a few days later he left......

Before he disappear, he left a letter with lil gal's mum and told her to give only after her wedding......

On the day of her marriage, lil gal was hoping to see lil boy but he did not turned up.... she went to find him but he is nowhere to be found..... she gave up hope and continued with her wedding.....

After the wedding ceremony, lil gal's mum pass her lil boy's letter...... and she started reading..... as she read, tears flowed down her cheeks continously.....

The letter wrote :

My dear princess, congrats for your wedding and that you have found your happiness.....I am really sorry that i cant attend your wedding.....

Hope that you will be happy forever (: i am sorry i left without telling you.... the truth is that i had contracted an unknown disease and my days left are numbered..... do you still remember our contract??

how i wish it never ends..... i really loved you from the very beginning..... all those times you asked me if i had feelings for you......well i lied to you.... but now i guess you have found your happiness and i am happy for you..... Goodbye my lil princess.... loving you always....

Love,

Your Lil Prince

Lil gal cant stop crying......"YOU SILLY HEAD!!! why wont you tell me..... why are you so selfish? do you know the one i truly loved is YOU..... i have been waiting for you just to say that.....but you didnt.....and now you just left..... severing all ties with me....."

After that day. lil gal divorced with her husband....... And lead a lonely life......

(SilentStar) ♥ 4:15 PM

Thursday, May 8, 2008

Every time when i think of you,

There is always a constant smile on my face.

The little missing piece from my heart,

You have somehow replaced it.

You know that I care about you,

But you don't know how much i do.....

I find myself falling deeper,

Into the well of love.....

I constantly have butterflies in my stomach,

And I can hardly speak out my feelings;

My heart is ever pounding so fast,

And i am weaken by it.....

Even though I do not know much,

But i think I have finally found,

The "YOU" who I have been searching for,

The one whom i will always be with.....

I want to tell you,

how I really feel.

But I find it hard to express,

Cause this feeling is so real.....

The love that we share now

Will bind our future together,

Till the very end....

I wanted to let you know that i really care,

Though i may appear to be so cold....

My world solely belongs to me and you,

All these started......

When you made me

Fall in love with you.

(SilentStar) ♥ 5:36 PM

ILY LAOGONG ^3^ ♥♥

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

la0g0ng wo hao ai ni o...... xiang si ni lerhs...... ):
muacks ^3^ yao hao hao zhao gu o..... jys ferr ur history paper tmr.... :)
after that we have all the time to ourselves le......WAKAKAKAz.....*evil smile*

LAOGONG WO AI NI ♥♥♥♥!~~~~

(SilentStar) ♥ 11:11 PM

Monday, May 5, 2008

E maths is so challenging......wondering if i could clear this subject.......
haix......why nowadays there is so much conflicts and quarrels derhs??? and summre i m part of it........ am i really e hurt to all mankind???? am i jst so irritating???

how i wish i cud jst disappear n all tis will stop.............

(SilentStar) ♥ 12:41 PM

Sunday, May 4, 2008

Going back is a good or bad thing???

Maybe i dont even deserve to be loved in the 1st place.....

(SilentStar) ♥ 8:02 PM

i m lost....

Saturday, May 3, 2008

Is quiiting from all SEA games the right choice?

Yes.....
1. Who cares about whether you are dead or alive?
2. Isn't studies ur MAIN focus now?
3. Shouldn't you just obey every instruction of your parents before you turn 21?
4. Everyone is just giving you a cold shoulder....
5. You cant even take care of yourself le.......play on9 games for?
6. On9 is the reason you quarreled with your parents..so cre8 problems for
yourself for what?
7. Audi is where all sadness and jealously is developed
8. Spend more time with love ones
9. Excel in life's every aspect as much as possible
10. I really dun wan any quarrels anymore...... My time on tis globe is lessening
each day...

No.......
1. I love audi dont i?
2. I love my guild dont i?
3. I love my gans dont i?
4. I can quit temporary right?
5. He is there waiting for me right?

In conclusion, 10 reasons vs 5 reasons...... "Majority wins" so i decided to quit.........

(SilentStar) ♥ 4:37 PM

Each of us is sent here wid a purpose 2 unfold
We r given limited time 2 complete before we r old.
Upon arrival u r sure of the plan 2 b unfurled
Bt as u grow wid time
U absorb e teachings of the world.

U r bein taught abt e tings in life
How 2 differentiatw wad's real , right and true
U r told by ur loved ones wad u r suppose 2 do.
U r bein taught abt how to know wads wrong n right
To often show ur limitations, nt wad u cn achieve.

U proceed on wid ur journey n try ur very best
2 follow tis direction e established ways of man.
U dare nt venture out of ur comfort zone
U stay within the boundaries of e things you're told
Knowin lil of e long term damage tat they cn do.

Thru tis tempting process ur memories weaken
Ur once held purpose since replaced, with the materialism u seek.
E plan tat u were sent here 4 nw a distant memory
It’s e earthly teaching u ve received tat makes it faint you see.

As life goes on u start 2 sense tat u ve lost ur way
Nt realizing yet tat false beliefs ve brought u here 2day.
Achievin all tat they ve claimed wud bring u happiness
Deres still a hunger deep within, dese "tings" cnt suppress.
U search 4 deeper meaning you long to find e truth
Not just what others say is right n taught u .

Bt true ans 2 ur qns tat point u toward the light
Wich lead u 2ward tat once known path,
and brings ur purpose bac in sight.
U ve come upon a place in life deres unrest in ur soul
The path tat u ve been following leaves u feeling less than whole.

U begin to seek ur purpose tat wich u were sent 2 do
U reflect on many tings u ve learned bt few of them were real.
So many tings tat u were taught u find them 2b untrue
Innocently by dose u love hu taught u all they knew.

E more u learn the more ur mind resists tis newfound news
It goes agnst wads stored within n creates conflicting views.
Emotions stir ur tots run wild they shout 4 u 2 "Cease"
Bt the more u seek, n e more u find, the more u feel at peace.

Ur search goes on ,new truths revealed with each passing day
Hw cud it be dose childhood lessons ve caused u 2 lose ur way?
Confusion mounts frustration grows as you seek to find wads right
E road seems dark n lonely as u journey 2ward ur plight.

Bt soon e fog starts clearing n as u learn to clear your mind
A faint lil voice within u says "Kp seekin n u shall find."
U kp on searchin deeper u know it’s dere somwhr
N den one day tat inner voice speaks up once again"All e ans tat u r seekin, cn be found if u look within."

"It's outside interference tat kps truth from coming thru
Jus go within, grow quiet child, and u will discover wads true.
Ur struggle 2 awake is due 2 ur own choice
It's due 2 all e noise out there tat drowns e "inner voice."
"Learn to differentiate e teachings of your youth
E limiting n false beliefs u nw perceive as truth.

It is due 2 man made teachings tat make ur spirit tire
4 they r such tat interfere with achieving ur desires."
"U ve been told tat dreams u hold r far beyond ur means
Tat wad u long 2 experience is reserved 4 high class ppl
Ur only limitations r based on wad u believe

Shed dese limitations learned n u will soon achieve."
"Awaken n becum aware of all u say n think
Doin so will provide u wid tat one last missing link
4 it is dese tat shape ur outcomes each and every day
Learn 2 change them starting nw and u will find ur way."
"As u learn 2 discipline ur thoughts and conscious mind
Each ans tat u seek 2day, u will surely find.

Den learn 2 recognize e voice tat leads u on ur way
Take action on it's guidance, n do so widout delay."
"Discover hw 2 seperate frm falsehoods u perceive as truth
Dose false beliefs tat u were taught

"Be persistent, persevere and you will find your way."
"Dere will be days tat u will doubt wat u ve learned 2day
Jst understand tat life will throw some obstacles ur way.
Bt as they com jus realize n deep within u know

Each of them is happening as a means to help you grow."
"E guidance u ve received 2day will take u toward ur dream
Keep ur desire in focus, plant e outcome in ur mind
Ignore dose hu belil u n ur treasure u will find."
An "Inner Knowing" lights ur path as u r shown wat is 2b
E steps 2 take e "crystal clear" e plan is plain 2c.

U start 2 take e steps 2ward ur ever perfect plan
Wid an unexplainable "knowingness" uncommon 4 a man.
E excitement tat’s within u grows as ur dreams start takin form
Som days seem so effortless while som u bare e storm.
Bt on dose days u persevere,
stay focused and believe

Rememberin the voice within tat promised u'd achieve.
On dose days e dark clouds gather n it seems u can’t gt thru
N all dose in ur circle say, "There’s nothing you can do.
"U dig down deep within uu find some energy somwhr
And kp on trudgin 4ward cus u knw u r almost dere.

Wen e seeds tat u ve been sowing jus wun seem to grow
So much time n effort spent with so lil fruit to show.
Wid e tools tat u ve discovered, u nurture them wid care
Den kp on plantin more n more, knwin soon u will b there.

Regardless of at others say u think bac on tat day
Reflecting now upon the price u knew you’d have to pay.
You refocus on your vision all the good you have to share
And keep your fire burning cause you’re sure your almost there.
When you’re feeling worn and tired and you’re ready to give in
Your worldly thoughts start telling you there’s no way you can win.

You visualize the sunny skies don’t fall into despair
And keep on taking baby steps cause you know you’re almost there.
And then one day it happens the light starts breaking through
All the effort you’ve put forward starts producing what you knew.
The joy you feel inside you shows, excitement fills the air
Your proud of your accomplishments cause now you’ve made it there.

Through your determination and the guidance that you sought
The answers came upon you when you were least distraught.
The guidance that you longed for could never make it through
When those negative emotions of doubt and fear were indwelling you.

When you look back on the challenges this goal has put you through
You see them now as benefits, it’s because of them you grew.
You’ve learned that fear and anguish block the guidance that you sought
That those few times you felt cut off were due to your own thought.

You think of all that you have learned and how you’ve come so far
The dream that you are living now was once a distant star.
The obstacles you made it through, the blood and sweat and tears
How the faint small voice within you helped to overcome your fears.

And now it’s time to rest you think from all that you’ve been through
But that still small voice within you says
"You’ve another job to do.For there are those who long and hope to fulfill their dreams someday
So share your words help clear the path for others on the way."

"You have so much to offer now it’s a shame to let it lay
Go within you find the strength to begin it now, today
.And use your sweet life lessons, with others you can share
And help as many as you can to also make it there."
This guidance rings within you, knowing deep you can’t ignore
It’s this same small voice that got you through when you felt so weak before.
You go within and seek the strength to help all those out there
Who really seek your guidance and the following you share....

"The answers are available to any who will seek
Just take the time and go within when you are feeling weak.
The blessings are unlimited with so much left to spare
When things seem hard just persevere, and you too, will get there."
"Find within you Gratitude no matter how things seem
Express it each and every day while working toward your dream.
And magically as you express all things your grateful for
The key you seek will then appear that opens up the door."

"Your life long dreams will be attained if only you believe
Just focus on them daily and soon you will achieve.
All the things you long for and all you dream to do
Just persevere and keep on going and soon you’ll see it through."
"All these things will manifest that you have dreamt to do
If you will only follow this plan that’s laid for you.
Just keep it fresh upon your mind and daily go within
Above all else don’t ever quit and you will surely win!"

"And when you reach that pinnacle stop a while and rest
But jump back in and show the way to all those who request.
By following this guidance and helping all you can
You will have fulfilled your purpose and the Universal Plan."
We each were sent here for a time a mission to complete
False teachings learned along the way we must now learn to delete.
And each must search and find within their own unbiased truth
And recall the reason you were sent, which you knew once in your youth.

(SilentStar) ♥ 10:10 AM

Friday, May 2, 2008

What did i do
Where have i done wrong
To deserve all of these

Quarrels,tears and weeping
Replacing joy, smiles and laughter

What did i do
Where have i gone wrong
To deserve all of these

Dwelling in my well of childhood
Instead of moving forward

I guess this is who
and what i really am.......
Just so so so
PATHETIC......

(SilentStar) ♥ 5:17 PM

Thursday, May 1, 2008

Gazing at the sky each night
Searching for the brightest star
It has been waiting there for me
So close but yet so far~~

The star winks through the darkened sky
And reaches out to me
Magically appearing each night
To let the whole world see~~

I Have wished upon this special star
My whole life through, it seems
Closing my eyes
Making the wishes
Of hopes and dreams~~

My wishes were fulfilled
When u finally appeared
You are that someone special who have made all my dreams come true.

So now whenever we're apart
I find that same bright star.
It makes me feel so close to you
No matter where you are.

*I LoVe YoU ShA DoNg GuA x33*

(SilentStar) ♥ 3:46 PM

You came into my life
At a time I needed someone
To hold me in the darkest Hours.
You capture my heart
With all the glory Of love’s power.

I was like a sailor
That was lost at sea.
You came into my life at the darkest Moment and rescued me.
I look back and wonder how
Did I get this far without Your love?

When we are together, you make my heart sing,
And I feel like I am on top of The world.
Now I can tell you that in my life
Nothing remains the same.
When I look into those Beautiful eyes I can see this love lasting forAn eternity.

I know from the little time That we have been together that you were made for me.
You have made me happy Beyond all means.
I can’t forget what the joy of Being with you brings.
Before you came, my tears in the midnight hour Flowed like the mid summer rain.
I was so lonely and needed Someone that would love me
And hold me in his loving Arms.

Before I met you, everyday was the Saddest days of my life.
Now with you, I now have someone to help Me through life darkest storms.
With you in my life I Feel ten feet tall and am riding So high.
I never thought that love could Bring so much joy Into my life.
The feeling that I feel when I am With you, makes my spirit feel so High.

I will love and cherish you And the happiness you brought Into my life until the day I die.
You have made me so happy, I cannot find words to explain just How good you make me feel.
I will give you the best of my Love and so much more as Long as I shall live.
Together as we stand and repeat our Vows of love.
We will be a living testimony of What true love does.
My vows to you will be true and my love For you will be forever.
I will always be there for you
And to leave you in the future, I will never.
I will hold and cherish you and give You all the love your heart Can stand.
For baby, you have made this little girl a very happy girl.
I love you dong gua that Came into my life just In the nick of time.
Today, tomorrow and forever You will always be mine.
And I will love you until Time is no more.
You are the one that I will forever Adore,
and I will hold you close to my Heart and I will never let you go.
For you and I will be together as one as long As we shall live.
And to you all that I have I will gladly give.
Thanks my love for making Me the happiest girl in the world.

(SilentStar) ♥ 9:59 AM

uncle eric has gone off peacefully......thou his leaving is a pain or hurt to us but we will always have him in our minds...... after crying yesterday, i think i shud really pick up wadever loose end i have and move on.....

(SilentStar) ♥ 9:46 AM